Bultaoreune 불타오르네

I am enjoying virtual popcorn at the moment as I watch the drama unfold in the vaccine WhatsApp group. There seems to be a disagreement in terms of how the booster doses should be implemented swiftly in preparation for the upcoming state election. Currently, the plan is to conduct it like a drive-through with all Klinik Kesihatan contributing manpower for the purpose.

All is well until a decision came up abruptly of wanting to open the centre on the weekends. Mind you, the existing workforce at all KK’s are already stretched to the maximum as centralized Covid Assessment Centres (CAC) and Rapid Response Team (RRT) are still ongoing on top of running routine clinical services at their respective clinics. The workforce will be further burdened by the provision of teams during state elections due to commence on the 20th. The way I see it, medical front liners are already fed up with all the ad-hoc instructions and what felt like an unnecessary burden of work to the current ones they have.

It came to a point where a young medical officer pointed out the occupational hazards linked to the drive-through operations at the airport if the weekend plan was allowed to continue. It was a valid concern on top of highlighting the strenuous shift systems some medical personnel had to go through. After all, with the current opening of 5 days a week, not everybody is taking the booster. We are not achieving much on the weekdays, so there is a concern of why we need to open on the weekends. I thought it was a tad courageous for this young man to stand up to an experienced doctor.

Hence, the title of my blog post today – FIRE 불타오르네

A successful organization needs to have 불타오르네. But not just any 불타오르네. We want a bonfire, a campfire and a candle. In my clinical facility, I would describe bonfires as the young, junior doctors. Full spirited and passionate about their duties. Eager to learn everything. Motivated to help everybody at all costs. Ready to fight, ready to sacrifice. Ready to make a scene for the sake of their patients and themselves.

Candles are the seasoned, experienced doctors who would say, they have seen it all. They are stable emotionally. They keep on burning but not with rage. They are cool-headed that some may mistake as being lackadaisical or simply not motivated. But they are there to keep the fire burning and light up other fires as needed. However, if the wick becomes shorter and is not replaced with a new one, the spirit of Hippocrates may just die off without a trace.

I would describe myself as a campfire. In other words, I have learned how big my fire should be depending on the purpose. If my purpose is to cook a meal, it should be bigger. If my purpose is to keep the campsite lit and protect the campers from wild beast – it shouldn’t be that fiery. It is about knowing where to channel your effort properly. This is because, with time, I discover that not all patients want your help. They just need that vote of confidence to proceed with their health decisions which may not be aligned with yours. Especially in cases of end of life care. It’s knowing which battles to fight, and which to just let it be.

Perhaps I forgot to mention one more fire. It’s not a good fire but somehow it’ll find a way to exist.

BATU API

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Jung Kook’s painting

I am a new A.R.M.Y. I embraced the fandom when Dynamite came out – which means I am watching old old videos of BTS just because I wanted to know their names in the first place. Once such video is BTS In The Soop where the boys get to chill at this house doing whatever it is that they like. Be it making legos, playing ping pong, cook meals, binge on games, fishing and such.

What caught my attention was Jung Kook’s painting. Needless to say, all the boys are talented and produced great art on the canvas. With the exception of Tae as he ‘created’ a sculpture instead.

Great paintings and sketches start with the base/ basic shapes.

For someone like myself, who doesn’t know how to draw a simple face and hand, this was what I observed during my scrolls on IG. Artists always start with circles or ovals before filling in the details of the drawing. It is puzzling to see how the most detailed drawings start with just a rectangle. Then I was super amazed when I saw Jungkook painted the greens and yellows over that black mountain. I had no idea that it was possible. Ingatkan kalau dah hitam tu kira tak boleh nak ubah apa dah.. I was proven wrong. In fact, the colours came out so pretty. There’s so many things I don’t know about art on canvas.

Dalam konteks manusia, your past mungkin kelam. Hitam. But nothing is stopping you if you want to start anew, rebrand and become a better person. Just like the colours in Jungkook’s painting.