Bet that is what every KKM personnel feels like saying to netizens. Yang kerja kat spital dah macam separuh mati, having to now make priorities tang siapa ada better chance of survival untuk get the resources, yang netizen mulut puaka masih tak faham bahasa. Suruh vaksin sebagai usaha tak nak.. semua pun Yahudi. Eyy.. aku pun dah fedap dah ngan Covid-19 taw.
Although in comparison to my colleagues yang kerja in intensive care all, kerja kat KK tak seberat tu – we are at war with mentality and the actions that come with it. We still participate in sampling and triaging patients for admission. We try our best to keep our patients from having to admit into hospital but the circumstances macam ada ripple effect to each other. Covid to them mcm tkde apa. Tapi percayalah.. bila dah mencungap esok kat wad, manusia yang kau maki tu jugaklah yang akan jaga kau. Yg akan make sure you dpt mengucap syahadah sebelum dikomakan. Sebelum di-intubate. Cause you might not wake up.
Malaysians have a big problem with their perception. Dahlah pemahaman tak seberapa, ligat plak media sosial. Tak ke sia-lan je natijahnya. In my psychology module, it takes a whole semester to just study about it. It is not as simple as I talk to you, you understand. I show you, you get it. There’s a lot of process going behind that less than one millisecond human activity.
Netizens know alcohol, arak is haram. Tapi ketum and rokok haram tak boleh accept. Is it because they are limited to what they learn from school.
Netizens know it is a big sin to mempersekutukan Allah. To them, syirik is solely bomoh who does rituals with smoke, chicken and yellow cloth. But wearing an amulet is considered okay. Could this be a culture thing? is there a discrepancy between religion and culture assimilation.
Netizens know that mahjong, Las Vegas or Genting is judi. But is unable to see that cuci duit, scratch cards is also judi. Perhaps they have not had enough experience or knowledge to identify those activities as such.
Belum lagi citer pasal yang maki segala jenis benda dia boleh maki. Education, economy, legislation, freedom of speech… fenin sis.
Recently there was plenty of news regarding random knocking on doors and gates of houses. Back in the 19th century, these were mainly pranks by children. Only now it has escalated into these doings being done by mischievous spirits, poltergeists, black-Eyed children (my first time hearing of it) etc. If these are done by youngsters who have nothing better to do, my advice is “please.. stay at home. We still have a Covid-19 virus to fight”.
If they’re spirits, then Ya Allah please protect us from all harm
It would be interesting to unravel the science behind it though. There were a few theories circulating about how it is about sounds being transmitted. It has to do with the wind, seismic shift, the water, concrete and whatnot. Yet, this cannot entirely explain how people caught images of Nothing on CCTV even with the banging sounds at the metal gates. Surely it must have been an eerie experience. Have you heard of any interesting scientific theories of this ‘knocking door’ phenomenon? I’d really like to know.
Malaysians being the best trolls on the planet have started to dub this situation as ‘hantu ketuk-ketuk’. I am honestly waiting for the memes to crop up. ‘Hantu ketuk-ketuk’ seems to be travelling from Sabak Bernam down to Port Dickson and Melaka. I guess we will be keeping our ears open for news of this from our friends in Johor soon. Who knows the entities might cross the causeway and pay a visit to Singapore afterwards.
I thought I am a woman with a high ego. Only to find that later I will lower it down upon a Cold War with the husband or in the face of a confrontation with anybody, if it is for a greater good. contoh paling simple. Patient kata aku salah. aku tak salah. tapi aku minta maaf jugak. At that moment, I can feel my EGO sliding down to the ground, carik longkang, menyusur masuk sungai, pergi lautdan terapung sorang2.
Two things caught my attention this week on Facebook.
One of Azizan Osman and his 1 MILLION motivation speech. To be honest, I don’t mind him making money as a motivator for entrepreneur. It is in a way macam having someone to resurrect your inner ability and power to achieve more. Some argue that he doesn’t even own a business and yet is earning millions. Modal air liur je, they say. Well, looking at his from an introvert point of view, that air liur is his gift. So is his self esteem and confidence. And he is using that in a way that could earn him a living. My only problem is of him having to put out all this false credentials and title. You want a phd title, you work for it. Tu yang jadi masalahnya.
Similarly kalau Ebit Lew tetiba tak reti baca Quran rupanya, yang tuh pun aku akan marah.
In response to Azizan’s 1 MILLION story, I came across a screenshot of this guy on Twitter posting tweets of questions and answers, mostly with elements of body shaming. That is just a vile way of retaliating. Gemuk2 jangan mainlah. That is not nice. Consequently of courselah I rasa kesian kat Azizan Osman. Attacking someone based on how they look is just not professional.
Easily kesian. Forgive him.
The second thing that caught my attention was about Kluster Sivagangga. We all know already the index case, Nezar Mohamed Sabur Batcha has COVID-19, has been on trial, found guilty and issued punishments accordingly. On the news today, over 200 individuals affected by the ‘cluster’ will file a case against the Nasi Kandar owner, as advised by ‘a lawyer’ – to serve as a lesson for everybody else to not flunk the quarantine.
“Tuntutan saman ini dibuat berdasarkan nasihat peguam bagi memberi pengajaran kepada semua orang supaya tidak sewenang-wenangnya melanggar arahan kuarantin sehingga menyebabkan virus Covid-19 merebak,” katanya.
Question being.. “Peguam mana tu”
The man dah mengaku bersalah – has Covid 19, will be jailed and fined RM12K. I cannot help feeling kesian for this index case man. It’s like sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga. The motive behind this saman thing was said to stem from victims being shunned by outsiders and failed businesses. I can understand the business part but the psychological aspect – seriously, you would feel better when you win the saman a.k.a duit? People will welcome you in their homes and premises once they know you won some money?
Oh. lUpa. in some parts of the country – Cash is King.
The Nasi Kandar man’s decision to not quarantine himself is likely because of poor understanding of Covid-19 or the ‘tak apa’ attitude – the kind of attitude you see in patients in the clinic who refuses insulin or high blood pressure medications. He is already paying a hefty price for his ignorance. Ingat sedap duduk penjara? Kena denda? Aku pun tak cukup duit nak bayar denda RM12K.
I really hope that those who are greatly affected will reach an amicable decision with the Nasi Kandar owner. There is no denying that what he did was wrong but his intentions may not be malicious to begin with, more like ignorance. Perhaps selfish is the word.
Maybe the 200 people are similarly selfish. Elok sangat lah tuh. fuhh.. 200 people.. kena screen betul2 tu. Kang ada yang menunggang saman. At times like this, nak nasihat BERSABAR pun no use .. since they are already really pissed off.
There is no right & wrong way to be kind to another human being. As long as it brings a difference towards the better to the person at the other end, that is a big alhamdulilah. In the spirit of Ramadhan and restrictions arising from the Covid-19 pandemic, Malaysians have witnessed the rise of a few samaritans and philantropists.
NGI – Non Governmental Individuals
Some argue that you should not show the deed. Personally to me, if you have the star power and ability to influence a huge group of people, why not. Netizens favourites nowadays is Ebit Lew, Uncle Kwan & Syed Azmi. Of course, there are others behind the limelight doing their bits to serve humanity such as KakRed, Noorinora and but let’s focus on these 3 NGI’s for the sake of this blog entry.
FOCUSED, MEANINGFUL & BENEFICIAL
I had the opportunity to listen to him speak about his work during IMAM’s conference about 2 years ago. He laid down a very important framework on how anybody can become an NGI. Everyone can donate something. Everyone can menderma. His BIG FIVE ways of contributing include Duit, Tenaga, Masa, Ilmu and Doa.
MONEY, MANPOWER, TIME, KNOWLEDGE & PRAYERS
Mr Syed Azmi deals with heavy issues as opposed to just giving a family a grocery basket or financial assistance like rape victims, domestic abuse, children issues. His work involves saving those in distress and placing them in a safe community so they could overcome the trauma, sustain their lives and improve their standards of living. Hence, at times we can see him breaking down, frustrated, merajuk and a roller coaster of emotions because these problems are real plus nerve-wrecking and that is how any normal human being would respond to it. Sometimes the law works in favor of him and at other times, against him and his efforts. Despite the hiccoughs, he always managed to pick himself up, recharge and continue what he has started.
A former policeman, Mr Kwan Chee Heng is a Chinese samaritan famously known as Uncle Kentang. He defies dirty politics and bureaucracy. He was one of the NGI’s who helped me realize the importance of giving focused help and connecting with the community.
He operated the Van Jenazah with 24hours access by getting keys from the selected mamak eatery. His groceries package are personalized meaning an Indian family may need different items compared to a Malay family etc. That was eye-opening for me. Not everyone wants noodles and the same type of flour.
An islamic motivator, an apprentice of Datuk Dr Fadzilah Kamsah so much so that people associate him as an ustaz. Some consider him as part of tabligh, the good ones. Indeed, despite being a revert, he has the knowledge and his message is simple,
ALLAH SAYANG KITA
Whatever that we go through, it is because ALLAH SAYANG KITA. To me, he is a philantropist. When you do not have strings that tie you down and have the financial freedom to take care of the welfare of other human beings – this is what one should aspire to become. He has the money, time, knowledge, manpower and makes doa as well for every family he assists. Whilst other aspiring NGIs like myself , may be limited by funds, time and manpower – he was able to champion it all. How nice it would be to serve humanity without having to think about the law, money etc. How wonderful it is to just give, give and give.
I learnt a lot about charity work from these individuals and these are the BIG FIVE lessons I have gathered so far.
It gets easier doing it with a team on the condition that you know how to pool and coordinate your resources.
To have money is a huge strength to drive a cause. Without it, it is quite a challenge to get things where they have to be. I am not talking about bribes or anything. It’s just that while in some charitable acts, you may only need manpower – most of those in need requires financial assistance to move forward.
Communication is important. We do not want to upset local authorities that may hinder future efforts. At the same time, we do not want the charitable gestures to be misconstrued. Yes, it can be a form of CSR to companies but lets try not to make it look like a gimmick.
Apart from just offering help, they also actively look and search into the communities for those who are in need. This I feel is important because sometimes the marginalized members of the community may not know how to seek for help in the first place. Even so, some may not have the basic means to do so. They may not have phones, transport or even illiterate. Sedih, kan?
Charity is continuous. Giving is not something they do in Ramadhan or near festive seasons. Their assistance spans throughout the whole year! This requires mental health stamina, support of loved ones, reliable contacts and networking. Not many people could do that but we hear of these 3 NGI’s activities all year round.
I have yet to see a government based NGI doing these on a large scale. Perhaps they are like me – worried of consequences that may tarnish the image of the government. We might step on toes of people who has certain interest in mine. Plus, when you are in a gov sector – everything is tertakluk to arahan and anything you plan to do, you need to have kertas kerja, surat and kelulusan. Even in your private time, you want to go for a holiday overseas, you still need to inform the kementerian. It’s part and parcel of being a civil servant. We respect that requirement.
Hence, if I intend to become an NGI, I must learn to navigate around my responsibilities, red tapes and what not. Jangan dipakaikan baju pada yang miskin, hingga diri sendiri terpaksa berte-lanjang. Know your limitations, educate yourself and learn from those around you. InsyaAllah for every good deed, Allah will bestow His rewards accordingly.
17th April 2020 – this is Day 31 of the RMO. Upgraded to the MCO for at least the past 2 weeks. Both Mr Husband and I are still required to go to work since we are part of the Essential Services workforce. We have mixed feelings about it. Part of it is this positive emotion driven by Altruism and at the other hand is the fear of contracting the disease from unknowing, asymptomatic carriers.
The roads are empty except for a few cars. Children and other vulnerable members of the society are keeping themselves inside their homes to avoid risk of contracting the disease. Despite the early fear and panic-buying among citizens, the hype slowly died down and we see people shopping more responsibly.
“There is no emergency in a pandemic”
Truth be told, you could be dying of a heart attack but if I don’t know your COVID status or risk, you would have to wait until I don my PPE fully. Which is part of the reason why we need people to stay indoors. To minimise risk, break the chain. All healthcare services are playing their part to manage this pandemic. We may not be the one working in hospitals but we all have shoes to fill. Medicine is practiced differently in primary care. I can only say for what we are doing at my centre though.
Appointments are postponed. If patients have demonstrated good control of their disease during previous visits, we would endorse a prescription for at least a month. However we would still see those with horrible personal disease management and pray that they will do well and not go into a DKA or Hypertensive Crisis.
All coughs, cold & fever are treated like something BIG. We get agitated if a patient penetrates the screening counter for fever and enter the consultation room. This is because these patients are supposedly triaged and seen at the Fever Center. Whereas those at risk of COVID-19 will be seen at the isolation room (bilik wabak).
HANDWASHING has become a common practice not only among HCW but also patients.
Seats in the waiting area are spaced out for Social Distancing and reinforced dutifully. In the consultation room, the patient is also sat at a distance and would perform physical examination as necessary.
Medical officers are not wearing wristwatches and are bringing their personal items in easily disinfected carrier bags.
I can get to work before time (as always ) . Only perks now, parking is easy to find. I really love that part.
Family life has also taken a different routine.
Since daycare and formal school is closed, the kids have been shipped to their grandparents house very morning by my husband and I will collect them every evening. Previously, we were sending our kids separately to where they need to go.
Husband has been the one buying the groceries as operating hours are limited and its much easier for him to get them on his way back from work. In the meantime, I could get house chores or dinner done and have the kids washed up.
Husband is working EVERYDAY for long hours. Office hours doesn’t mean anything to him anymore. He is in Public Health and whenever a pandemic strikes, they are the ones working behind the scene coordinating and keeping track with the numbers. His task this time is to handle the reten. The states data.
GrabFood and FoodPanda riders have become our best friends bringing food to house.
I find that I have more cash to spare nearing payday in a weeks time. This is after deducting the necessary monthly payments and all. I am still paying for my loans and childcare services. On top of my moms monthly allowances, donations and what not. It made me think of how my expenditures were prior to this. It made me wonder what I spent my money on despite my efforts of being frugal.
I realized it’s in the little things that later add up to become more. It is those little ringgits that make all the difference.
I either bring pre-packed food from home, fast, buy a bun or rely on food donations for lunch.
I have also cut down on my DOTERRA LRP purchases. I still enjoy the products but nowadays I buy only as needed. I controlled my urges to buy another diffuser or just so my to achieve a 100PV order to get my commission. It is because if I calculate back my expenditures, I feel that there is no need for me to spend RM600 per month to get RM300 back in return, when the ‘rasa untung‘ part can still be attained if I spend only RM250 for the month.
The bookstore, POPULAR is closed. That means I save at least a few hundred ringgit from my casual stroll in the store to buy books or magazines that keep on adding onto my TBR list.
My free Friday afternoons are spent resting/studying in the clinic as opposed to outings at the nearest shopping mall. There alone, I am saving from the trips I go to Watson, Popular (again) and a fancy lunch.
Visits to Family Mart has also been interrupted as I fear coming across a roadblock just to get a Sando or my Bubble MIlk Tea. So far I have managed to visit FM once in this 1 month of MCO and its because it is coincidentally near the place I work. Once instead of the weekly visit.
Since Mr Husband is buying the groceries, I guess I did in a way save a few hundred ringgit as well because of that. I used to get foodstuff using my money so hey, extra savings there!
We will be celebrating Ramadhan during MCO. This means no bazaar. In a way, I am grateful for that. At least, tak banyak makanan yang terbazir during bazaar and iftar at hotels. We should start observing Ramadhan as how it should be done with humbleness and gratitude by thinking of the poor and unfortunate, more prayers , sedekah and quran reciting.
How has Covid-19 made changes to your life? Were they mostly positive changes or it made life more miserable for you?