“When I get logical, and I don’t trust my instincts – that’s when I get in trouble”
I once made it public that I refuse to solat istikharah (for some reason) because I was worried that I wouldnt like the answer Allah will give me. I was also distressed at the thought that if I dont follow what He ‘says’.. bala will be sent down and make me miserable for the rest of my life. For I have sought His consult but choose to ignore His verdict. Obviously, I was ostracized.
That was then. The time when I did not fully understand about Istikharah.
Currently, from my understanding, Istikharah is a form of solat, a prayer offered to Allah when one is faced with a dilemma or even during times of high. It is a tool for us human beings in asking for Allah’s guidance in everyday life. Or to some.. in making big decisions.
For instance, now Im torn between
staying to serve in a district hospital setting or to work in GHM and pursue forcefully my interest in Anaesthesia.
So I perform the Istikharah for a few nights or months until I get the word from Allah. Some say it comes in the form of a dream whilst others say it comes with a hunch. I suppose you’d know what to do when your conscience becomes clear and you have no doubt in making a particular choice.
InsyaAllah there shouldnt be an issue of choosing otherwise if what we think or feel strongly about becomes crystal clear, right?
Yes, thats the way it should go. Then, as Angie puts it, “Trust your instincts”